The tone of the girl’s voice broke her heart— well, if she had one. However, Carmilla was never good at these things. She was never good at comforting someone, or talking in general. She was always quiet and stayed in the background. The thought of the new vampire being so distraught and fearful of the situation was kind of unsettling. She tried to think back to when she was turned. She was afraid, but she didn’t remember how afraid she was. It was all new. The world was seen in a brand new light that she had never thought about in life. She wondered if the other saw it that way.
“Ava… That’s a pretty name. Where did you come from? I haven’t seen you around the campus before… You look entirely too young to be attending college, anyway.”
♚ ;; ava opened her mouth to answer, but found that no words came out. she honestly did not know how or why she was at the college ( she didn’t even like education all that much ) and it honestly hurt a little to think about it. almost as if her own mind was repressing her from thinking about it ( the thought of her mind keeping her own memories from her sounded bizarre ). so instead of thinking why she was there, she simply tried to remember the last thing she could and– maggie. maggie had been the last person she had been with, and she could recall P A I N. she couldn’t blame maggie though, the way she had treated the other when they were younger was terrible. she felt something catch in her throat as she spoke.
’ i live not too far from here– actually im kind of in walking distance… the last thing i can remember is being with my… friend( she cringes saying the word friend ) maggie. ’
❛ I’m actually her lover, and no- I’m no vampire. She won’t change me. I’m sorry to hear about that. I can only imagine what it would be like to go through that against your will. ❜
♚ ;; ’ w-wait, correct me if i heard wrong, but you and carmilla are LOVERS–? wait, s-sorry– i mean– i just– … carmilla doesn’t seem like the one who would be in a long-term romantic relationship– no offense to you, you seem nice !! and… you shouldn’t want to be a vampire, it’s– it’s not nice in the slightest. you’re better off remaining h u m a n.‘
The vampire ran a hand through her hair with a sigh, dark chocolate optics falling to the floor as she tried to think about where to begin, what to tell this girl. She guessed she should start with her name and where she was. She stood from the drawer and walked towards the redhead, arms crossed over her chest as she sat beside her.
“Alright. I’ll tell you. First off, my name is Carmilla. And you’re at Silas University. You are experiencing the same things I experienced about 400 years ago… You might feel an emptiness, a stinging, incredible regret… Your heart… might feel like it’s not even beating. Your mind spinning in confusion and pain. And you just want to lay down and wish it all away… sweetheart, you’ve been turned into a vampire. I don’t know by who. Maybe it was my mother, or that idiotic brother of mine… I’m not sure. It’s a lot to take in. I know… But I’m willing to help you. You want to tell me your name, sweetie?”
♚ ;; ava listened intently. she was afraid– no absolutely T E R R I F I E D. what the other was describing was exactly how she felt. she felt all of them, if it was even possible. an emptiness as if something was wrong, a stinging as though she had been betrayed by her best friend, and incredible regret for EVERYTHING she had done in life ( though its not like that part was any different than from before ). her heart felt gone, her mind was pounding, and she really, really just wanted to lay down and DIE( there was no point in wishing it away if her life was just as bad before ). she could feel something building up to the back of her throat as she took in the mountain of new information. it made her sick, knowing that she’d be living for– how long ?eternity ? she was struggling enough with life as it was.
’ i’m… ‘ she began, but she found that her voice was near gone. she cleared her throat, wiping away at the tears in her eyes she had not realized had formed until now. ’ i’m ava… ’
♚ ;; ava had been changing on carmilla’s orders– she had just met the brunette ( after supposedly being MURDERED and turned into a VAMPIRE ) and was given some one her roommate’s clothing to change into. the young did not know where carmilla had left to ( she mentioned something about getting ava blood ) but she did not care, she was finally alone. alone meant peace and quiet, and peace and quiet was pure bliss for ava. a sigh left her lips as she dragged the dress up and over her head. and just then, the door opened and ava’s cheeks grew warm as she turned to carmilla and–
’ y-you’re not carmilla… ’ she pointed out, blatantly, face growing more red by the second. l a v a bubbled in her throat, as crimson hues were wide with pure SHOCK and FEAR.
Pale fingers gripped the soda can as the young woman glanced at the girl standing before her. She quirked a brow, chocolate optics scanning the girl.
“Alright, I’ll bite,” -metaphorically speaking of course. “Who are you and why are you in my dorm?”
♚ ;; ava froze, crimson orbs with a glint like blood widening. dried b l o o d trailed down from the corner of the girl’s mouth. she honestly did not know why she was there– the last few hours had been a blur, but it had been PAINFUL. almost as though she had gone through d e a t h. the red dress she adorned had a large rip in it, as if pierced by blade, on it’s chest and around it stained blood.
’ i-i’m… ’ her head was spinning; she could barely remember a n y t h i n g. ’ i’m AVA, i think… i can’t remember much… ’
